I feel really terrible right now...

i slept for 5 hours in the middle of the day. I don't want to be here anymore or do any of this. I don't care about anything anymore. End my suffering. Anxiety ruined my entire life, I wish I wasn't scared of people. And again talking about it does not help in the slightest

AND THERE ARE STILL RACCOONS IN MY ATTIC FFS. When will any of this get any better?